It has always been extraordinarily hard for me to keep consistency with going to the gym. I hated it. It still isn’t my favorite thing to do.
However, I knew I had to make a change, but I needed to figure out why I despised going to the gym. What could I do to make it somewhat more pleasant?
It started with the fact that I was not the type of person who could go to the gym and be left to my own devices. I needed either a trainer or take a class and since a trainer was super expensive I opted to take the classes that were included with my membership. No matter what class I took- I was always surrounded by mirrors.
I could see my fat jiggle. I hated when my shirt would come up and expose my pudgy tummy. I couldn’t keep up with the others during Zumba or Pilates. There was so much self-loathing and anxiety built up around this that it was becoming harder to even go to the gym than the actual workout. I kept thinking that people were judging me for what I couldn’t do… I wasn’t doing the moves right. I wasn’t able to complete the reps.
And no way could I even go near the gym equipment! I would freak out so bad if I didn’t know how to use it (or make adjustments) or especially if the gym became crowded. THAT was the worse! I even saved up to get a personal trainer since that would take me out of the gym classes. It helped for a little bit but I get bored easily doing the same type of workouts. I needed to take classes in order to keep it fresh. And eventually the sessions with the trainer ended and I was back to figuring out where to go from there.
It just became so powerfully negative that I knew eventually I would just stop going to the gym again. Like all the times before. I needed to do something to bring more positivity- something that was initially just for me. This was my problem. I needed to focus on something to keep my mind from thinking about what anyone else was doing. To help keep those irrational thoughts and anxiety at bay. So if my problems started with looking at the mirror, maybe I should start there.
I designed three shirts for myself:
I Got This
I am Strong
I am my own Hero
You will notice Beast Mode- that one was for my fiance | I will do a dedicated blog post (or a microblog on Mirror Me Fitness IG account) for the reasons behind those designs.
As silly as it may seem, the shirts helped to keep my focus strong. It was something for me to look at and ignore all the stupid crap that was trying to force its ugly head into my workout time. The words were for me to read. It kept me motivated. It made me happy! And that was all that mattered.
My family saw the shirts, asked why they were “mirrored” and they fell in love with the concept. I started showing them to my friends who I found out were on the same boat as me. I thought I was the only one who felt this way, but after speaking about it I found out I wasn’t alone. It was normal to feel this way for some people. Some people got over it, some didn’t go back to the gym.
So with the encouragement of my family and friends Mirror Me Fitness was born. Honestly, I thought people would think the concept and the designs were stupid. I ended up growing the designs and launching new collections. I still have more plans for new designs to come in the future, but I wanted you to know about the beginning of this story.
Maybe you can relate to it or have more ideas of how I can better handle myself at the gym. For some of you – you don’t need words of encouragement, and that’s great! For others… well maybe you are more like me and these designs can help you too. This blog will be dedicated to the more personal side of the brand. Not only the journey of Mirror Me Fitness but my own personal fitness journey and how I try to deal with this ongoing struggle. I am no fitness expert. This is just the personal story that is connected to the brand.
Mirror Me Fitness